It has been a while since I wrote for the last time. Unfortunately, that seems a pattern that starts to repeat. And I should not allow that to happen so often. But here I am again after my vacation.
It was getting dark and foggy in my mind, so I took my iPad, had a walk to find a nice spot and start writing.
I just came from my vacation a few weeks ago. And it did not help to get my mood better. I went to Barcelona after one and a half years to visit my family and friends. During the pandemic, I stayed in the Netherlands and decided to go this time because my parents and sisters were already fully vaccinated and I at least, had the first shot.
Seeing my family was amazing, seeing my close friends also. But I still hate the country, it wasn’t my place when I lived there, now even less. On top of that, I went 10 days.
For someone like me that likes doing things, being productive and has a big problem with ‘doing nothing’, 10 days were a toll on my mental health. And it all started already when I was here and I knew that I was going to spend a long time there.
It has been 2 weeks, and my mood has not gotten any better. It throws me into a loophole, where I’m falling deeper and deeper. I do recognize the symptoms:
- No joy in my daily life
- Bad mood
- Lay on the sofa after work or after gym and doing nothing
- Naps
Those are my symptoms when I start getting into depression.
Luckily I can spot those early and act before it gets worse.
Today getting outside and write my blog it’s the first step. I also started working again on my personal project that I would like to put on the market someday.
The next step it’s to plan a nice short vacation wherever I like, to do whatever I want 🙂
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