Well, this is something new, me writing notes when I’m a bit drunk.
It has been a while since I drunk a bit too much. And it’s weird for me to admit it, but it feels good. My thoughts, usually scattered all over the place, chaotic, like a summer storm, become quiet, organized, and more honest.
It’s fun for me to think what are the chemical reasons for it. From what I have understood, alcohol inhibits certain areas of the brain. But why do I feel like my thoughts are so happy, so simple and melodramatic at the same time?
I’m mostly interested in knowing, what part of me is responsible to make me feel miserable sometimes. I want to know if what I feel now, inhibit of bullshit, is the real me or just a defective version of myself.
Today I was in Amsterdam, having some drinks with old colleagues from work. And I drunk a few too many beers. And When I was walking back to the station alone in Amsterdam… I felt it. This feeling of freedom, being in a foreign country, living experiences.
I felt new and refreshed. Happy to be there, into something new, outside of my comfort area. Do you know when you were a kid, sick and locked at home, and once you fully recovered and went outside again felt like?
That’s how I feel, like a new world opening again in front of me.
I’m not saying drinking is good at all. But I think it’s important to listen to yourself and understand the messages your body sends you.
In my case, I need to enjoy myself more, explore more.
To be once again, that small kid that wanted to discover his surroundings.
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